Monday 27 July 2015

احذروا التقليد عند الشراء — ظاهرة الحشيش المخلوط في مصر



احذروا التقليد عند الشراء — ظاهرة الحشيش المخلوط في مصر - عمر شريف

في ظاهرة كنت كتبت عنها قبل كدة فبحث لي بس بالانجليزي. و بما اني لما جيت مصر دار حديث عن الموضوع بيني وبين دكتور نفساني صديق، أحب اشاركه معاكم.

هابدأ الاول بنبذة تاريخية بسيطة ...

الحشيش موجود في مصر منذ قديم الأزل. في نصف الثمانينات ظهر نبات البانجو وكان بدايته فسيناء. بما إنه كان رخيص و بيصطل بدأ يتشعب في السوق والناس ابتدت تعرفه أكتر. في أوائل التسعينات البانجو أصبح ظاهرة في مصر وناس كتير أوي كانت بتشربه. ’الورقة‘ أو’الباكتة‘ تبدء من ٥ جنيه إلي شوال لو عايز.   

فضل الحال علي ما هو عليه إلى عام ٩٨ حتي حبيب العدلي طلع و قال إن مش هتلاقي بانجو في الشارع في خلال سنة. الراجل ما كدبش خبر؛ في هذه السنة الكبيسة معظم الديلرز إلي كنا نعرفهم — الكان كتير منهم من السودان والنوبة — ذي ناجي وغسان إتمسكم واخرين زي علي ومحمد اختفوا.  

علي اواخر ٩٨ و بداية ٩٩ بدأ الحشيش يرجع تاني بصورة واضحة. طبعاً مش محتاجة عبقرية علشان نعرف إن دي كلها قرارات سياسية بما إن ناس عليا أوي هي إللي لها يد فتدخيل الحاجات ديه البلد. ظهر أحمد فهمي وقتها والأش يا معدن.

علي ٢٠٠٠ كانت مصر كلها رجعت تاني للحشيش. الصنف المغربي كان مسيطر وكان في ساعات اللبناني الفاتح.

في الدول العربية الحشيش السائد هو من أصل إيراني أو باكستاني، كثير منه مخلوط حِنَّة ومستكة ذي ما الديلر ده بيقول عن الكويت.     

في نفس هذي الأوقات كان عندنا واحد معرفه مغربي عايش فلندن بيجبلنا حلويات لما نسافر. فمرة أنا بهزر معاه و قلتله عندنا حشيش مغربي فمصر. بصلي كدة و قالي: دة حشيش درجة تالتة اللي بيجلكم، ده معمول فالبيوت و بيخلطه عليه كروصات (أبو صليبة - روهيبنول). 

إيه دة انتم عندكم أبو صليبة في المغرب؟“

تحب أجبلك“ رد علي بثقة.

الراجل كان شكله عنده حق. والكلام دة إتأكدلي لما كنت بسافر إلي أمسردام حيث كل الحشيش الملقب ب’مغربي‘ اللي الحكومة بتبيعه كان أنضف بكتير من ال’مغربي‘ بتاع مصر.


المهم، أيام الشباب كنا نسمع كتير عن حشيش مخلوط حِنَّة ومستكة، و كرداسة كانت مليانة منه. بس أكتر من كدة لأ. محدش فينا كان متخيل إن فيه حاجات تانية ممكن تتخلط.

رأيي أنا الشخصي إن علشان تخلط حبوب أو أي مادة مخدرة لازم الحاجات ديه تكون رخيصة جداً. و كمان لازم تغطي تكلفتها و تعمل للدفش فلوس كمان — ده أ ب إتجار مخدرات. في مصر، اللي كان/أو لا يزال متداول كان أبو صليبة ( Rohypnol )، ريفوتريل/أبيترل/أموتريل ( clonazepam )، سومادريل، برونكولاز، دي إتش ( Dihydrocodeine )، ترامادول، كيتامين...و باركينول —  إللي هو أرخص و أنتن دماغ. 

تاني حاجة اني ماكنتش متخيل إن ديلر مصري يبقي عنده التقنية إنه يعرف يخلط مادة مخدرة تانية مع الحشيش علشان يبقي أقوي.

خارج مصر، و خصوصاً إنجلترا، كان في نوع حشيش رديء وكان إسمه ( soapbar ) نسبة إن الحتة شبة الصابونة. التحاليل اثبتت إن ممكن يحتوي على شعرة حشيش حقيقي [ ٠.٢٪ فقد من ال-THC و هي المادة الفعالة في القنب (cannabis)]. الباقي بقي...إسمع عندك: برافين، طين، قهوة، حِنَّة، شحم، غراء، أصباغ، ورنيش، براز حيوانات — زمبؤلك كدة — اسبيرين، كيتامين، مهدئات، و مذيبات مسرطنة ذي التولوين والبنزين. أي نعم!

الفيديو ده بيوضح الأنواع المختلفة إلي موجودة حول العالم. 


عدت سنين كتيرة لغاية قبل ما أسافر كندا بشوية في ٢٠٠٩ وكان الحشيش شاحح تماماً في البلد. فواحد كنا مخلييينه ستيبن جابلي حاجة، اشرب منها سيجارتين وانام وأأنتخ وصدري يتقبض. اتنين أصحابي حصل معهم نفس الكلام. غير طبعاً إن الطعم والريحة كانوا غراب. قمت كلمت الراجل.

إيه يا عم البتاع اللي بيهمد ده. علي التلفون مارضاش يقول حاجة و قالي لم أقابلك.

دار الحوار ده واحنا واقفين فالشارع...

هو حضرتك تعرف الباركينول؟

إللا أعرفه...مالهم الصراصير؟

والله أنا هاحكي لحضرتك علشان أريح ضميري. البدو بتوع الساحل اللي أنا بجيب منهم كل لما يعرفوا اني جاي من القاهرة يطلبوا مني كام شريط باركينول. أنا فالأول فاكرهم بيتكيفوا منه، بس اكتشفت انهم بيخلطوا مع الحشيش.

قلتيلي إنت بقي.“ أرخص وأنتن دماغ. 


سافرت أنا إلي المجهول بعدها وبلاد تشيلني وبلاد تحطني ومرت خمس سنين كمان لغاية يومنا هذا. بعد أول كام يوم في مصر دار حديث شيق بيني و بين دكتور علم النفس صديقي.  

”الارقام بتقول إن ٦٠٪ من شعب مصر بيشرب حشيش. في ناس بتشرب بقالها ٢٠ و ٣٠ و ٤٠ سنة، من الناس ديه في منهم عندهم أمراض نفسية وعصبية وكتير بياخدوا أدوية. وبما إن حشيش كتير من اللي موجود فمصر دلوقتي مخلوط بأدوية فده له أثر سلبي علي الناس ديه أكتر من أي حد، و خصوصاً إن معظمهم مايعرفش وفاكرين إن هما "بيشربوا حشيش بس".“

 تأكيداً لكلام الدكتور ونسبة إلي هذا المقال في جريدة التحرير بتاريخ ( ٣١ ديسمبر ٢٠١٧ )، موضوع الخلط في الأيام الأخيرة أصبح ظاهرة في مصر. غير الباركينول، الظاهر الحشيش بيتخلط بالأومتريل (clonazepam) كمان كما جاء في مقال أخر في الأهرام  بتاريخ ٣ نوفمبر ٢٠١٧.

بعد ما طبعاً حكيت للدكتور قصة الباركينول أنا فرحت إنه أكدلي المعلومات اللي كنت عرفتها من الشارع من سنين فاتت . في الواقع كان هو ده السبب الرئيسي إللي خلاني اكتب المقال ده وهو إن الناس تعرف هي بتدخل إيه فأجسمها.  

خليك واعي ومتأڤورش بدون داعي.


طبعاً لو جعلنا نبات القنب شرعي وقانوني ذي بقيت العالم كده كله هايتغير للأحسن: فلوس مالهاش أخر داخلة للبلد، علاج ناس كتيرة جداً عايشين علي الأدوية الكميائية، قطع راس السوق السوداء
، وغيره وغيره. يا ريت الناس تفهم. 



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The article is about how lots of hashish in Egypt (and the region) is mixed with all sorts of harmful shîte. For those who are on medication, sometimes whatever the hash is mixed with can interfere with it, leaving them with adverse reactions ― causing drug-induced psychosis, for instance. Thing is, they usually have no idea why it happens, since for them they are "just smoking up". In the article, I explain how I first found out from one dealer that some Bedouins on the Northern Cost of Egypt add Parkinol (Trihexyphenidyl) to the hash they sell. This, for those who don’t know, is a wicked anticholinergic, antiparkinson agent of the antimuscarinic class and a medication that cause hallucinations and delirium, which is taken recreationally in certain parts of the world. Also how, years later, a psychiatrist friend confirmed what I had already knew from the streets about mixed hash. Stay informed about whatever you choose to ingest. For knowledge is power. So is harm reduction.

On a parallel note,
The Egyptian Man Who Kept a Piece of Hash in His Stomach for Four Years is another article about one eerie phenomenon.

Also,
Surviving the Madness of Sakarana — Hyoscyamus muticus in which I recount the bonkers experience of ingesting one of the most toxic plants existing on the face of the Earth... and why you should never, EVER, do it.  



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Sunday 26 July 2015

Out-of-Body Experience and Ego Death on a “Heroic Dose” of Mushrooms




Psilocybin ‘Magic’ mushrooms are a psychedelic fungi that has existed for tens of thousands of years. They have been used for ceremonial purposes by shamanic cultures in South America as well as in Africa since the earliest recorded history of mankind. In fact, in the Tassili plateau in the Sahara of Northern Algeria there are cave paintings dating back to 5000 BCE depicting mushrooms.

There are more than 180 species of mushrooms, which contain psilocybin, psilocin, and baeocystin — the psychoactive ingredients and psychedelic compounds. Their potency depends on several factors, including the species or variety, origin, age, and growing conditions. Tripping on them, or more likely the quality of the trip, depends on other factors such as dosage, set, setting, physical condition, energy levels, and more importantly, it differs from one person to another.

For the curious learner, more thorough information about psychedelic mushrooms can be found all over online.


My own first experience with shrooms was during my late teens in California back in the mid-late 90s. I shared an eight of a gram with a friend as we were instructed and had quite a pleasant trip. However, I felt more drawn to LSD, which I had the chance to first try around the same age.

I tried mushrooms again a couple of times in Egypt yet they were not really potent. Then a few years later in Amsterdam where they were sold legally in coffee shops along with marijuana and hash. The commercial doses there were about 0.9 gm per baggy; simply because they didn’t want people [tourists] losing it. My friends and I would always buy three or four doses to share between the two of us.

Trips were fun, some colours and some distortion and some laughter. But that was that. Unlike acid, you don’t really go that deep into your head; or so I thought. The whole trip only lasts several hours; then afterwards we can have a nice dinner before sleeping without any problem. You also wake up fresh and revitalised, while on acid one feels like they are still tripping throughout the next day.

This perceived lightness was one main reason most girls we knew preferred mushrooms to LSD. Probably also because the first are seen as a natural substance compared to the latter, a chemical with the spooky word ‘acid’ in its name! 

A year later, we happened to share 15 grams between three people. This was more fun than any of the previous trips. And when I say fun, I mean objects start ‘breathing’, significant confusion, and how magical the music sounds.

But due to the fact that in some parts of the world mushrooms were not commonly sought after, it was hard finding them around. When they did appear, the doses per person rarely exceeded 2-3 grams, sometimes even less, because usually there wasn’t enough for everyone.

Having said that, being much more potent — dosage wise — LSD remained my preferred psychedelic. After all it was what took me to the other side of the moon. Though as we are about to see, I came to find out later in life that the other side of the moon on mushrooms goes much deeper into the Rabbit Hole. For it seems to go way back in time and space into the collective consciousness, as well as the natural history of mankind, and not just to 1938 or 1943.

It’s all fun and games until you dare diving head first into the Rabbit Hole

Years have passed and by the early 30s I went to live in Canada. I tried mushrooms there a couple of times, which were alright, nothing too impressive. Though it was pretty much the same doses of 2-3 grams.

And then once, a friend was able to get a full Ounce; that is equal to 28 grams for those who are drug illiterate.  

We didn’t try them until one day there was a Phish concert when we decided to go for it. Not being too crazy about tripping in public anymore, I was not too excited about it. But, we had a whole lot and there was a concert, so... we went along with the plan.

About 30 minutes before leaving the house, my ex-partner, her South American friend, and myself ate the mushrooms. I remember holding the huge Ziploc bag to pick some, and it was so full, Man. I guess I lost track and ate more than what I usually do. I remember the shrooms were enormous with plenty of blueish/green markings — a sign of the active ingredients and psychedelic compounds: psilocybin, psilocin, and baeocystin. Then right before stepping outside of the house, I foolishly opened the bag again to munch on a little more. Yeah, taking the Road of Excess had apparently become a compulsion.   

We hopped into a cab to head towards the concert. By the time we reached the location I was dying to pee, so we went straight to the main gate. To our surprise, all gates were shut while security guards standing around. They said the concert had been cancelled due to heavy rains the day prior.

At the time I was beginning to feel some confusion, so I didn’t really register what was said as I was also fixated on peeing. I only reckoned a moment later when the two girls explained. We then went further where people were gathering by the parking lot and an adjacent park before finally finding a quiet spot behind a tree to relieve myself. 

The girls met a friend and wanted to stay a bit in the park where a group of people sat listening to music. Probably concert goers who were trying to make the best of the unexpected situation. But I didn’t really feel like it, thinking that going back home to spend time with the four doggos would be ideally more peaceful. I then told them I’ll cab it home and that I’m totally kool with them staying.

As I walked further to find the cab, my ex called to say they’ll come join me. She arrived few minutes later while her friend was waiting for someone to get beer. So we sat on the grass for a bit, which was when I started to feel physically uneasy. Not the anticipation butterflies who usually visit before tripping, but a much heavier fog was coming onto me.

Having spent six long days in a Real Jail in Canada for an alleged DUI, I sure didn’t want any trouble and decided then and there that I needed to go home. It felt that what was about to happen was going to be intense — probably because I had never felt this way before throughout the previous 15 years of experimenting with psychedelics. I told this to the girls, so we got up, stopped a cab and got in.

Throughout the 10-minute ride I remember uttering the word “Ya Rab!”, meaning “O’ God!”. Saying something like this out loud, in Arabic, is totally unlike me, especially with them two around. I am not and was not even religious, perhaps spiritual, yes. But I did it a few times.

Once we arrived, I had trouble walking from the cab to the house. It seemed like my body was not responding to my brain. It was not like having no balance at all, such as with Sakarana (Hyoscyamus muticus), the Deadly Nightshade plant my friends and I consumed in Sinai years earlier. But rather, it was a feeling of disconnection between mind and body, which kept feeling heavier with every step along the way — a personal first with psychedelics. The girls actually had to help me get into the house and up the stairs.

Then according to them, I was out for three hours.

Psilocybin mushrooms were known by The Aztecs as ‘God’s Flesh’

I
do not recall many details during this time. What survived are a few instances like flashes of an incomplete jigsaw puzzle.  

At some point, I started acting like a reptilian; sticking my tongue out like an All Black performing the fearsome Haka. Apparently, my neck was also playing along while embodying the reptilian fit I was in. The body load sensation was still there and kept getting heavier before receding altogether. Then there was not much awareness of my body.

In my head, languages, words, and concepts lost all their meanings — they did not make sense. What I was experiencing was highly inexplicable and incommunicable. So I don’t think I even tried.

As for my consciousness, or inner being or soul or spirit, it felt like it was out there spread across the cosmos, merging with the totality of everything else. I was not [fully] in that room for those few hours, not even in my body. And I would have certainly never known how long I stayed inside if they hadn’t told me later; for time was nothing but yet another construct, which didn’t mean anything.

At some point I had a surreal, overpowering feeling that my consciousness was leaving my body, heading upwards towards the stars. But it seemed to me that it was going to be a one-way trip. Of course this was a poetic way to put it. In other words, I was dying. Or so it felt.


At the time, the out-of-body sensation left my psyche with two options: Either resist it; but due to what had been happening it was crystal clear I didn’t possess the needed energy or might. Or, accept it and leave gracefully towards what really is. I then recalled The Tibetan Book of the Dead in which acceptance is key in making the soul’s journey seamless; simply because when one is actually dying there is no reason or purpose to fight. 

So that is it. Your time on the Pale Blue Dot is up. Embrace the experience and head towards the stars where you have always belonged ... I thought to meself.

I looked at my ex while somewhat apologetically saying: “I’m sorry” [that I can’t fight and can’t be the one who is in control as it’s usually the case]. Then said: “La Illaha Illa Allah,” meaning, “There is no deity but God”. As one of the Five Pillars of Islam, this Shahada is a creed declaring belief in the oneness of God. The phrase is uttered right before death or shared between loved ones when parting ways, often before a journey.

Again, this was bizarrely unlike me, especially saying it to her. My grandma used to tell me that many, many moons ago as a kid; mayhap my mother or aunt as well. Though I had not heard it anytime recently, let alone say it. It just mindlessly came out of the subconscious. All that said, it appeared that I was sincerely ready to take off and possibly become a star.

Then all of a sudden I sensed a slap on my face, which sort of made me snap out of whatever hazy daze I was in. I also think I heard a ‘No’ as I was being slapped. More like a long, slow-motion ‘Nooooooooo’.

I smiled before telling the girl not to do it again. But I did regain some of my consciousness.

This was the second slap according to her; also three hours had passed since we were back home. Having never seen me so out of control before, the poor girl didn’t know how to deal and started to weep. Seeing this, I snapped out of it even more, asking about what had happened. As both girls tried to explain, I slowly began to come back to my senses, yet significantly still perplexed.

By then, language made more sense as I was able to form somewhat meaningful sentences, short and simple ones. I truly felt like a child right after birth, for there was this utter confusion about who I am at the core. So I started questioning the girls.

This, I hold, is the aftermath of the Ego Death — its dissolution — which is a complete, yet temporary loss of subjective self-identity. It is the death of the sense of self, of who we think we are, our perceived individuality. This is a common feature of high doses of entheogens. 

Generally speaking, the concept is not only found in the realm of psychedelia, but in the spiritual and mystic realms as well. In Sufism, for instance, the term for “dissolution” or “annihilation” of the self is ‘Fanaa’, ( فناء ) . It means dissolving the ego consciousness to reach the purer Higher Self. One way the dissolution is achieved is through self-actualisation, which, according to Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, precedes self-transcendence. 



Esoterically, the process of ego dissolution is often exemplified as dying before dying; as an eternal deathless death. The transcendence is essentially a radical act of dying in ourselves while merging and [re]uniting with the totality of everything, the Absolute — getting us ready for our own earthly death, one could say.   


I recall then finding myself sitting on the floor with back leaning on the bed. 

What am I doing? I asked the two girls. 

Right now or in life in general?

Both. But more in Life. [Leaving all I had in Egypt including 10 years of working in corporate and travelling to the unknowns of Canada, without having any plans and without knowing what I would be doing] was what on my mind then, though I was not able to word it. 

Well, you’re a brilliant writer,” my ex first said. She shared later that she had particularly picked the word ‘brilliant’ because it is one of my favourites, to give me a sense of familiarity.

She then put The Beatles on and called Caramella, my late Cocker Spaniel, in an attempt to further remind me of myself. When I later wondered why there was no music, I was told it had been playing all along, yet somehow I could not hear it. 

Slightly gaining more clarity, I went on with the self-inquiry.

So what happened today?

They once again told me about the missing part, which is from the cab to the slap — this time with a bit more details.

Why did I take so much? It is something in me. I always like to take a lot from everything [psychoactive substance wise], self-reflecting out loud. 

And with all I have done in my life, that means I’m really crazy in the head, proceeding with the introspection. I recall thinking of the large number of psychedelic trips I had already taken since I was 19 up until that point in time. Interestingly, I do know the exact number as I have been noting them down in multiple notebooks throughout the years. All I could say for now is that it’s not a two-digit figure.  

Yes you are. And that’s fine, it’s OK,” she comforted me.

My watery eyes widened as I looked at her with a certain child-like amazement; like I had never thought of it this way before.

Yeahhhh... it is OK. It’s who I am and what I am, remembering myself at the essential core level, a tad more confidently this time.


Hallucinogenic mushroom rituals were a central
aspect of Maya religion

After 10 minutes of this rebirth moment, I felt slightly more alive and a tad bit in control. Well, relatively so. I really wanted to take a shower to “clean up” the energy. My ex was worried I fall in the shower, or at least that was what she said. But I already knew I was fine, so I got naked and jumped in.

Before doing so, I got a natural urge to get naked with both girls, potentially to have a big bubble bath together... or something of that nature. My ex, however, laughed it off and it never happened. I think her more free-spirited friend wouldn’t have minded it.

Actually, at some point she went down to feed the dogs, leaving her petite friend right there next to me on the bed. This was when I thought both girls may be trying to trick me in some way or the other. Maybe they want me to get it on with her friend while they secretly filmed. To prove that I’m a cheater or something. Pfff, Duuuude. I did look around for cameras before the paranoid thought slowly dissipated. Nevertheless, I was still sensing a bit of sexual attraction coming from the friend, which was probably the origin of my somewhat delusional idea. 

Interestingly, though, many years later I heard Terence McKenna mentioning something about a relationship between high doses of mushrooms and group sexual activities. Hm.    

Once out of the shower, more clarity invaded my mind. I was then led to relive what had transpired during the last several hours.

I remember being overcome by such gratitude to be alive — to be Here and Now. I kept uttering the phrase “Capture The Moment” multiple times like some kind of mantra. Tears were happily flowing down my cheeks.

In a way, I found out that there is a mighty fine line between what we call ‘life’ and what we call ‘death’; equally, that the transition could happen anytime. I further realised that it is most likely a beautiful thing; that there is absolutely nothing to fear.

I was also exceedingly grateful that the concert had been cancelled. I cannot even begin to imagine being so out there in a stadium full of people. Also that the girls decided to join me at the last second. Not sure what could have happened if I were in the cab all alone.

What is noteworthy in this psychonautic tale is that it was totally unexpected. If I had planned to go full beast mode with a “Heroic Dose” — with here being about seven/eight grams — I was certainly not going to any concerts, or even leave home in general. Perhaps the set and setting were going to be nothing but “Silent Darkness” à la Terence McKenna. Or at least during one fraction of the trip.

Another essential is knowing your shit; meaning, how potent it is. Those turned out to be extremely powerful. And I can confidently say this because a month or two later we tried them again, back to the 2-3 grams level, yet it was a full trip. A strength never experienced before at such an average dose.  

Oh well. These remain good advices for all of us. 


Throughout most of my previous trips, I have already experienced the effects of psychedelics in catalysing a sense of oneness and interconnectedness with nature among everything. I have also experienced God and The Kingdom of Heaven within me. This time was a clear reminder that one had been right all along. As Above So Below: As Within So Without: As the Universe so the Soul.


The spiritual effects of psilocybin — among other plant medicines — have been repeatedly studied over the years. In one study at Johns Hopkins University, one third of the subjects said the experience was the most spiritually significant of their lives; while over two thirds said it was in their top five most significant. In addition, 79 percent reported increased well-being in the months following the study. 

Decades earlier, Timothy Leary had directed the Concord Prison Experiment, which was conducted by a team of Harvard University researchers between 1961 and 1963. Along with psychotherapy, psilocybin was administered to young prisoners in attempt to inspire them to leave their antisocial lifestyles behind once they were released. Results were positive here as well.

Much more about these early experimentation days is covered in my research exposé: The LSD Experiments of the 1950s and 60s [Videos & Documentaries]. Interestingly, the piece was quoted and cited in the 2017 book Drugs and Society — 13th Edition by Annette E. Fleckenstein, Glen R. Hanson, and Peter J. Venturelli.

There is also a full sub-chapter about psychedelics in my upcoming book. So Stay Tuned!


Apart from recreational usage, the property of psychedelics that makes them useful healing tools is that they teach the mind how to cope with original deep-held, often repressed traumas, which are usually the cause of many mental illnesses. The lucidity and openness that come while there can end up setting things straight in the psyche — for it truly is mind-manifesting. 

It is worth noting that one major reason why I moved to Canada, if not THE major, was to get and remain clean following a seven-year toxic lifestyle. By that, I mean heroin addiction as further explored in Opiated Then Hatin’ It. And psychedelics helped a whole lot in getting me through the healing journey. As mentioned, because they are mind-manifesting they have the ability to add you with novel perspectives while making you look at things differently; ‘things’ include your very own self with your fears and insecurities and addictions.  

One entity currently leading the domain of psychedelic therapy is MAPS (Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies) @MapsNews. Since its inception in 1986, this non-profit research and educational organisation has achieved considerable results in the field. One offered program is Psilocybin-assisted Psychotherapy to treat anxiety associated with life-threatening illnesses and end-of-life. Another is treating people with PTSD, especially combat soldiers, through MDMA-assisted psychotherapy. So instead of the usual pharmaceuticals, on which patients likely end up being dependent, one or two guided trips and they can be healed. Almost like magic.


On a parallel note, even cannabis has proven to heal PTSD among other mental illnesses and conditions.
One of its benefit is helping cancer patients with nausea and vomiting as a side effect of chemotherapy as well as reduces their chronic pain; it also helps other pain patients suffering from multiple sclerosis and nerve pain. Likewise, Mary Jane helps people with severe epilepsy who had not been helped by previous treatments. The same goes for Alzheimer’s disease and Crohn’s disease.


All that said, of course Big Pharma would use all its might to stop this from happening. And that was precisely what they did ever since the late 60s. Why heal people once and for all by giving them some plant medicine when you can keep them chemically numb and mentally shackled, possibly forever, through the use of prescription medication? But, everything is gradually changing,
slowly but surely. The genie is out of the bottle, once again. This time hopefully for good.  

A specific successful example of healing thanks to psychedelic mushrooms is the case of a 65-year-old grandmother, Estalyn Walcoff, whom I wrote about in the LSD exposé. After being diagnosed with a type of untreatable lymphoma, the lady took a trip under the guidance of two New York University psychotherapists. In a Vimeo video titled “A Patient Speaks by Patrick H. Murphy”, she shares how that single trip positively and wholeheartedly affected her as well as her condition. It is so moving, hearing her talk about her fascinating account tends to bring tears to one’s eyes.


Beside psilocybin mushrooms, another healing ally from the plant medicine family is the DMT-containing Ayahuasca. Offered in a growing number of retreats and treatment centres around the world, especially in South America, it is used to treat addictions and traumas among other psychological
— and perhaps also physiological — ailments. But unlike the more formal and professional work of MAPS, sometimes counselling and support before, during, and after the ayahuasca trip are not offered, which remain essential for true healing. Without therapy or counselling alongside the trip, many people do not actually heal. As such, you find them repeating their experiences until they may be able to integrate that which they have been learning into their lives.  

An additional one [or two] visionary psychedelic substances is the African plant medicine
Iboga and its active compound Ibogaine [ibogaine hydrochloride]. Both are widely hailed as addiction interrupters as well as “waking dream creators”. Like Ayahuasca, they are offered in many treatment centres worldwide. 
 

Fortunately, as of June of 2019, Denver, Colorado has decriminalised magic mushrooms. Kudos to the Mile High City! Then it was Oakland, California that followed by decriminalising all natural psychedelics. Check Zide Door
Church of Entheogenic Plants. Kudos to Oakland as well! That’s all in addition to the earlier decisions taken by a growing number of other countries regarding the legalisation of both medicinal and recreational use of marijuana.

You see, in my own opinion the world may very well one day follow through and hop on this mind-manifesting bandwagon of Love. Starting with marijuana then maybe also psychedelics. The significantly positive results of the research, which was carried on after the long hiatus since the late 1960s-early 70s, are too overwhelming to bypass or to pretend there are no benefits to such colouful tools. One Day: Maybe years or even decades into the future. Hopefully we get to see it during our lifetime.

Despite the potential benefits discussed herein, it is still wise to note that drugs, all drugs are not for everyone. People react differently to different substances and healing modalities. And psychedelics are no different, especially for those with certain mental illnesses and unprocessed past traumatic experiences. So that nugget of truth ought to be kept in mind while investigating the topic and before delving into the Rabbit Hole. 


This “Heroic Dose” experience left a mark on me like no other trip before. As mentioned, by that time I had already taken quite a bit of LSD while mushrooms a tad less. So I considered myself somewhat of an experienced psychonaut. And, again, I had never, ever, “went out” in such a way. Even with large doses of LSD, I always knew down deep inside that I was tripping. Perhaps the only few times I worried for a little bit was when thinking that I would never go back to being ‘sane’ — a common worry. That was it. Then again, what is ‘sanity’ anyway?

Even though the shedding of the ego was something I would experience during many trips, but this time, you see, it was quite different in that there seemed to be no ‘I’. That’s why Ego Death seems suitable, despite the fact that it was still temporary; for as long as we are alive it will constantly keep growing back, again and again. Ego, therefore, is not the enemy as it is sometimes portrayed. But it is a vital part of our makeup, with which we should learn to coexist. One could argue that identifying with ego by believing we are one and the same is what brings about all the trouble and the suffering. The Parable Of The Cow: You Are Not Your Thoughts deals with precisely that. 

This time, however, there was no “I’m tripping”, or any worry, or fear; even when subconsciously uttering “O’ God” in the cab. I was literally some place else, or at least about to get there. Somewhere sort of ethereal, cosmic hyper-dimensional space full of weird things — for lack of a better word — and a soup of geometrical figures. And, I was not afraid of dying. Not that I did before, but I actually began anticipating it afterwards, one dares saying. What a truly humbling experience that was.


In a psychedelic tie-dye nutshell, the simple message I came back with to this plane of existence we all share was relayed to me though the mushroom: “Capture The Moment” — in the sense of living the Here and Now where time essentially exists. Living in the present, each and every moment. Truly. Wholly. Madly. And unapologetically. For this physical earthly life is just a ride.

The afterglow of such an intense encounter stayed with me for almost a week, rather than a day or two like every other time. I reached out to some family members and old friends out of the blue, asking about them. In general, I felt rejuvenated like I haven’t in quite a long time. Beside grounding the ego, the trip has certainly enriched me with some valuable existential insights and newer perspectives.


When we lose ourselves, we find ourselves. The key is to trust our own madness.




“Psychedelics are illegal not because a loving government is concerned that you may jump out of a third story window. Psychedelics are illegal because they dissolve opinion structures and culturally laid down models of behaviour and information processing. They open you up to the possibility that everything you know is wrong.”

— Terence McKenna




ALSO VIEW:

The LSD Experiments of the 1950s and 60s [Videos & Documentaries] 
 
Surviving the Madness of Sakarana — Hyoscyamus muticus (aka Deadly Nightshade)

Amphetamine, Methamphetamine, and Crystal Methamphetamine — A Psychonaut’s Review

Opiated Then Hatin’ It
 
Animals Getting High: Weird Nature ― Peculiar Potions [Documentary]  
 
Placebo Effect & The LSD Prank
 
My Correspondence With a 31-Year-Old Reader Before He Passed Away
 
Funny Drug-Related Stories

Funny Drug-Related Stories 2  

The Great Pyramid’s Blessed Curse: Climbing To The Top And Beyond

My Journey Towards Self-Transcendence

The Intertwining of Genius and Insanity
 
The Intertwining of Pain and Pleasure
 
Dance With Your Demons

The Ashram Sweeper Who Blocked Me on Facebook

The Egyptian Man Who Kept a Piece of Hash in His Stomach for Four Years

Why We Should Not Fear Death

 احذروا التقليد عند الشراء — ظاهرة الحشيش المخلوط في مصر


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Tuesday 21 July 2015

Rare Historical Photos # 9




 Charles C. Ebbet tales a photograph of the scenery of New York City from
the GE Building in Rockefeller Center, 1932
A three-story outhouse in St. Louis, 1800s

Sean Connery on the set with Claudine Auger for his 4th
James Bond film, Thunderball ― 1965




 Egypt's Ancient Pyramids of Giza, 1860-1880

Immigrants from Austria-Hungary stand outside immigration sheds i
n Quebec, Canada ― 1880 - 1920

 Paris' Eiffel Tower slowly comes to life, 1887

 A German fraternity experiment with taking a selfie in front of a mirror, 1912

The Great Wall of China before restoration, 1907

Women's tennis being played at the Summer Olympic Games in Paris, 1900

A market scene on Mulberry Street in New York City, 1900

One of the first underwater photograph, 1893

An electric car at a charging station, 1912

Children lick large blocks of ice on a New York City sidewalk, 1912

A railroad exhibit near Baltimore, 1927

Jeanne Devereux becomes the first licensed female hair stylist in New York City, 1927

A young girl walks her kitten on a leash for the National Cat Club Show in London, 1931

A Women plays beach tennis on a Tel Aviv beach, 1948

Lynchburg, Virginia's Blair Parson store was famous for its 10,000 calorie Sunday, 1950s. Dang!

Dinosaur tracks were discovered in the bed of Texas' Paluxy River. Here they are being removed for preservation, 1952

Helen Keller meets President Dwight Eisenhower, 1953

Marilyn Monroe enjoying a ride through New York City in a 1956 Ford Thunderbird

During the Great Oil Crisis people enjoy a picnic on a deserted highway, 1973

A phone booth in San Francisco’s Haight-Ashbury neighborhood, 1967

Young boys in Fort Worth, Texas don space helmets for the planetarium showing, 1955




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Friday 17 July 2015

The Ashram Sweeper Who Blocked Me on Facebook



The Ashram Sweeper Who Blocked Me on Facebook by Omar Cherif, One Lucky Soul

A while ago, an old friend posted some article on his Facebook wall and commented that there is no need for psychedelics. He followed it by paraphrasing the Sufi poet and theoretician, Abū Ḥamīd bin Abū Bakr Ibrāhīm — Attar of Nishapur — who is better known by his pen names Farīd ud-Dīn and Aṭṭār:

We are drunk on something created before alcohol was created.”

Having just finalized the LSD Experiments of the 1950s and ‘60s piece, as well as having a sub-chapter on psychedelics in the book, I thought I would share a few things with him and his readers. The following words were exchanged.

I first commented:

Using psychedelics is certainly not a ‘need’. However, psychedelics are merely a consciousness tool to get us to that mental place, which is already within us. In today’s world, this endeavour may only be achieved through years of meditation, since one will need a considerable amount of time. As Terence McKenna said it, You don’t have to go to India for 10 years.

It’s important to note that psychedelics are only instruments that allow us to get a glimpse of mystical insight. It is an enlightenment enhancer, if you will. Though that glimpse can later be deepened and developed by various esoteric ways such as mediation and yoga. After some time, drugs may no longer be necessary or useful. Or as Allan Watts simply puts it:

“If you get the message, hang up the phone. For psychedelic drugs are simply instruments, like microscopes, telescopes, and telephones. The biologist does not sit with eye permanently glued to the microscope, he goes away and works on what he has seen.”

Similarly, psychedelics can alter behaviour in beneficial ways which are not easily attainable through conventional therapy. Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies (MAPS) have been doing a great job treating a wide variety of mental illnesses since they began in 1986.

Let's leave the rest for my upcoming book, they have a full sub-chapter.


A friend of my friend then wrote that you cannot compare a ‘hallucination’ caused by a drug to the ‘real’ thing. Once he said that, I knew he had never tried psychedelics, just like our common friend. Simply because to reduce the full psychedelic experience to a ‘hallucination’ is to have never been there.


So I replied again:

People who haven't tried psychedelics happen to have their own views. Many of them are afraid of getting into their own psyche and of dealing with their own demons. So they demonize the tool. We can't blame them though, for how would they know. Cheers to you.


Another friend of my friend commented saying that he’s enjoying this debate, to which I replied:

It's not really a debate. For I don't want to convince anyone with anything. It's simply that it's a topic I know much about through research and through personal experimentation for over two decades. This is a recent exposé of mine about the topic, the early tests funded by the CIA, and the history of psychotropic substances in general that you may enjoy reading.

The LSD Experiments of the 1950s and 60s


Then finally my friend commented, addressing both the first commentator and myself:

What we can ‘experience,’ whether a drug released mind-production or a taste of a level far beyond mind-consciousnss, is limited. The drug released mind-production is so exotic and out of the ordinary it SEEMS like it must be ‘spiritual’. It's not, it's Rumi's counterfeit gold. The taste of a level far beyond mind-consciousness (and beyond words, hence all this confusion) is only a taste.

Rene Guenon in The Reign of Quantity and The Signs of The Times makes a clear distinction between, ‘psychic’ phenomena and spiritual experience. Psychic phenomena, however exotic, are local (sub-lunar) phenomena: i.e. They are part of creation.

The Spiritual experience is what our extraordinary but limited consciousness can taste of a reality beyond creation. This is essentially what some Indian Gurus told Terrence McKenna when he explained his Mushroom trips etc and asked them for their opinion; they said it was part of Saṃsāra. He did not accept their opinion. Hence his jokes about why spend 13 years sweeping the Ashram waiting for enlightenment? He did not understand the difference between psychic and spiritual.


My final response, which I had really enjoyed writing, came two days later:

Agreed, they are not the same. I feel telepathic sometimes with my mother; other times I dream of things that happen later — known as clairvoyance. These are psychic phenomena which some people with extrasensory perception (ESP) can experience. Even though they show us how much we, and our science, still don't know, keeping us humble in the process. But essentially this has little to do with spirituality.

The thing is, we cannot judge an experience in a balanced, wholesome way without having to go through it ourselves. When some of us talk about the spirituality that psychedelics catalyze, we talk from personal experience. Only myself have experienced the oneness and interconnectedness with the Universe and everything in it in such a way; only myself have realized that everything has beauty; only myself have found God and The Kingdom of Heaven to be within me. Countless others have had similar experiences with psychedelics, yet they will always be uniquely different than my own. And as you mentioned, it is only a taste, albeit a beautiful one.

Consider writing about addiction for example. I can research and believe and preach about addiction all I want after ‘studying’ it in academic books after learning what others have to say about it. But I will never, ever, truly know what addiction means if I had never experienced being addicted myself.

That said, to tell someone that what they had subjectively experienced deep within their psyche over and over again throughout many years is not ‘spiritual,’ appears like a logical fallacy. We must have at least tried walking in their shoes to be able to relate to their experience. Other than that, whatever we say is a mere opinion.

Further, and in general, to reject something we don't know much about may not be the wisest of approaches when it comes to investigating the unknown.

As for what Terence McKenna had said, I cannot claim to know what he did or did not understand. However, for them resorting to conclude that those who think different do not understand is not much different from the ego-driven bigotry often depicted in today’s organized religions. “Only my book holds absolute truth.” “Only me is capable of understanding.”

I hold that Terence could have said the same about them being simpletons who believe they’ll become saints in the afterlife because they washed the feet of Sri Sri Baba in this one; that these are dogmatic superstitions. But he didn’t say they don’t understand. Instead, he said you don’t HAVE to do like them, since, unlike in religions, in spirituality the individual doesn’t need mediators between them and The Source. Some are able to reach self-realization and validate truth by direct, personal experience — otherwise known as Gnosis.

For a true freethinker fears not to understand things — or to entertain ideas — that clash with their own beliefs, traditions, and privileges.


To conclude, different people may take different paths to reach their mountain top. Some seeking the ultimate Truth, or beauty, or happiness and fulfilment, or God. In the bigger scheme of things, there is no right or wrong path. From OUR own level of consciousness there is only OUR path.

The rest shall be left for the book. Love and Light, Brethren.

Beyond our ideas of right-doing and wrong-doing, there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
― Rumi


As I read the thread a couple of times, I couldn’t help but notice that the first commentator was being defensive. I could sense it from his words and attitude. So I was curious to know why. I checked his profile and in the “works at” section I find “servant of a Sufi sheikh” — including the name of the sheikh whom I know. In other words, he is an ashram sweeper.

Aha. I wonder if it was McKenna’s “You don’t have to go to India for 10 years,” or “Wash the feet of Sri Sri Baba,” or both that made him twitch.

When I visited my friend’s profile some days later to collect my writings, I couldn’t see the commentator’s previous comments, even his ‘likes’ disappeared in front of me on the screen. Apparently it was too much for him to handle, so he blocked me.

This, however, only shows one thing: Down deep inside, this man is not confident in his faith. That is why he could not even tolerate having me around the virtual world of Facebook for having a different opinion, even though we were not ‘friends,’ and most probably we would have never crossed path again. Perhaps he did see some truth in what I said.

In summation, and as I wrote in my final comment, there is no right or wrong path. From OUR own level of consciousness there is only OUR path. Personally, I do not see any need for middlemen to communicate with God. Not because I have anything against the priests and clerics, but because in my philosophy this defies the whole essence of spirituality. True spirituality is a personal, inner voyage towards the ultimate Truth which one must embark on alone. It’s a self-initiation process. After all, it is one's own truth which needs to be discovered and not anyone else’s.

You see, if one still thinks they need a teacher, a guru, a middleman, or any person to make them feel whole, then they have not yet found the Tao. For our only way out is in.




ALSO VIEW:



The LSD Experiments of the 1950s and 60s [Videos & Documentaries]

Placebo Effect & The LSD Prank 

Why We Should Not Fear Death

The Millennium Eve I Spent Alone at the Mosque

My Journey Towards Self-Transcendence
 
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